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Monday, September 29, 2008

深藏在皮夹的...

被遗忘的,被深藏的,往往都那么不经意的被发现。

我真的忘了。

掏出身份证后,无聊的翻看其中才发现,才想起。

原来一直在身上。

一瞥后,立即把它塞回去。不敢多看一眼,不愿多想一些。

如潮水,挡不住。

再藏起来,再去把它“遗忘”。

Thursday, September 25, 2008

at work..

i blog too...

work blog...

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Feeling depressed?

I feel down. Now.

Am i depressed? nay..far from it. i think.

i remember the time when i thought i may be depressed. wasn't that long ago. was it?

it was a time when i realize how much a cry baby i am.

i cried on the way home from the train station, i cried while lying on my bed, i cried myself awake in the middle of the night and cried myself back to sleep, i cried in the shower where i can't make out if it's tears or just the running water, i fought crying while sitting at the back of my dad's car looking out of the window, i cried in the middle of brushing my teeth, i cried while i buried myself under my quilt, i cried while watching tv, i cried till i had no tears to cry any longer but i still can't stop crying.

was i depressed? nah..not proven "psychiatrically"

work was my solace. it's the only time i don't feel bad. i complain about it though but it keeps me going.

at the same time i guess i was lucky to have the right people around me, though they do not know exactly what i was going through but i guess they helped by just not giving me shit. i was shocked but ultimately glad my mum woke me up in the middle of the night to talk to me. i was lucky to get myself involved in something that puts me in a perspective i never had before. i was blessed to have a old friend whom even though i didn't use to meet that often before to talk to and share with. was fortunate to meet a new friend who brings comfort and sometimes inspire.

i'm glad i started blogging "again".

i don't feel that down. Now.

Depressing reads

are all over the place..first i read them everyday in the papers on the way to work. Stuff in Malaysia, the fiasco in Thailand, the whole economy being crazy 2 days, fare hikes etc. Depressing reads are all over! and i have them as "breakfast" every morning..to top it off i received what i deemed as another depressing read today in a form of a book. haven't finished it obviously..read bout 10+ pages..depressing..i would guess the ending may be slightly more uplifting however i really can't see myself trudging through the rest of the book till its end. Planned to let it be my morning read but guess i will give it a miss and read it only when in the right environment.

good news anyone?

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

想要....

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累与烦躁

觉得好累。

今晚和以往并没太大不同却觉得浑身的力气,灵魂都被吸干了。

好希望能停下来,一切,心跳,停。

觉得是空洞的。

这感觉让我厌烦。

笑,不笑不行。 笑能掩饰。 笑能给于虚假的安慰。

停。烦。空。累。

好脏的灰,是现在的颜色。

Friday, September 05, 2008

Heavy..but lighter.

Heavy...sorry. =(

Lighter..thanks! =)

唉...

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