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Thursday, January 29, 2009

我只需要听你说话....

你知道吗?
听你说话,我只需要听你说话。
在你的声音中,安全的让我害怕。


《失败者的飞翔 ~ 陈绮贞》

喜欢这段歌词。 有共鸣。

Broccoli Tree



My Fav Tree!

It's like the Mt Fuji of Trees.

29/01/2009 - 回家路上

好心的巴士司机小姐离站后还特地停下巴士让我上车。

在HMV找到绮贞的专辑,现在正在聆听。 超开心!

沉睡的我在地铁上被人叫醒让位给孕妇。

站着的我,拿出绮贞的歌词簿来阅读。 迫不及待!

太陽

你是我...小心維護的夢。
我疲倦的享受著,
誰也無法代替的孤傲。

我是我...疲倦流浪的太陽。
我熱切的希望,
能在消失之前,
得到信仰。

找不到绮贞


但买了Joanna, 也不错。

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

让我心情好点的..

陳綺貞 - 太陽

要去买专辑了!期待。 :)

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

走了吗?

出殡那天。

很重。

“我走不用紧..."

听着时..心似被狠狠的割。

“让她哭,让她哭.."

说着时..心是绞痛的。

农历年初一

一样的到ah ma家去。不一样的ah ma已不在。

看了一本本的旧相簿。翻看了前人的回忆,也瞥了长辈们的过去。

有点惆怅。

有时话不应该说得太早。

这个年的开始...

还真不怎么样。

Thursday, January 22, 2009

.

Didn't know what to put for title.

wasn't too aware of the date. had to check back the calender just now.

It just came. Was it expected? I guess in a way..old age and death..it comes eventually. Not on the 20th of Jan 2009 though.

I still remember the phone call. How I have to wake my mum up and break the news to her. How we rushed out of the house ASAP. How when we reach my mum just broke into tears uncontrollably. How when i entered the house everything seems a blur and just wanted to help my mum up the stairs to ah ma's bedroom. How i made effort to remember how she look at that time, 1 final breath it seems, taken in. I hope she wasn't in pain. Stillness. yellow. so that's what death looks like. I have never taken a longer look ever before. from then on it was all admin. Scanning the photo, burning it onto a disc, calling and emailing to the parlour. occasional passing of tissue to mum, rubbing her back. it didn't hit me till i made my way to work..teared from the bus stop to the office.

what was she like? i remember her egg w potato dish, potato and carrot soup. 2 of my fav. i remember the "xiao jian" with her voice. she always seem happy to see us and talk to us even when it's obvious we don't quite understand what she is saying. she likes to be in the presence of a good crowd of family members. will laugh when she sees other do. in the latter years, we draw amusement from how she mixes us up and don't really remember who we are. i feel guilty everytime she remembers i haven't visit for a very long time. have never done it alone. was something i thought of doing but never got to it. there were stories that she told bout mum, stories that i can't really comprehend due to my horrid hokkien. i remember seeing her smiling most of the time. gets grumpy sometimes but rarely.

i still do not know what title to give this post.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

The Guild

I really like this web series! Must watch for gamers. :)

Here's a preview..

"Bonus? We can!"




heh forgot to email the pic back home..think will do so tomorrow in office.

To be honest, whether there is bonus or not just doesn't seem to matter that much any longer. I definitely envy those with their A.W.S and also those with decent or at least some bonus..surprising not that much any more.

getting to comfy? that's something i'm worried bout. super lack of ambition..drag.

work is phew..been ot-ing quite a bit so far. Events piling up. On one hand i relish the challenge on the other I just don't wanna work too hard. It's so hard to strike a balance within myself.

oh well the year has been surprisingly decent so far. I feel this is going to be a good year. :) Touch wood & fingers X-ed.

Thursday, January 08, 2009

终于

白手表尽量不戴了。

皮包也清空了..除照片外。

省下的是买个漂亮的大盒,把所有的,一切的,有关的,收在里头。

封起来。

最少我已迈出大大的两步。 拖了一段日子。

有点担心会往回导。

嘿。尽量。

Friday, January 02, 2009

a friday that feels like a monday

felt a little overwhelmed in the morning.

got better as the day goes by.

bz week/s to come.

glad it's Saturday soon! :p

Thursday, January 01, 2009

全世界失眠

一個人失眠 全世界失眠
無辜的街燈 守候明天
幸福的失眠 只是因為害怕閉上眼
如何想你想到六點 如何愛你愛到終點


喜欢范玮琪版。

crap I

u think u know everything..u know nothing..

u know nothing..u finally know something..

~

sad is..u're not invited to the most impt day of someone who is impt to u.

~

happy is..:)

~

stolen: if i could give u a gift, i will give you the ability to see yourself as i see you, then u'll realise what a truly special person u are.

~

angry is..u know u could have done more but u just didn't..

first drink of 2009



had this on 28th, wasn't too bad..almost dying of thirst just now...

quick thoughts on 2008

a year of consolidation.

way of saying nothing much happened.

long time relationship ended, relationships reinforced, relationships faded, new relationships made.

product at work made the most significant progress, nothing drastic like last year in terms of changes in work environment even with the new office. strange tension at office sometimes these days, something i have never experienced previously.

euro 08 was better than the one at 04. better than the world cup at 06.

family..difficult beginning to the year, glad things turned out moderately ok. bro out of army, which is great, proud that he survived it, in fact i think he did pretty well in his posting. dad seems to be working harder than ever..work seems tough on him, definitely working harder than i am.

fail to go for any holiday this year..which kinda sucks.

did more shopping this year than i ever did, ever...shopping for myself.

met pple who are good fun to be with, grow to know more bout pple who has been amazing to me and given me much support over the year.

babies for lao da & jc friend.

E's marriage which is like unexpected twist..heh

quite a few more stuff i think..haha but too lazy to list le..

heh ok maybe quite a few things happened..but still..personally a year of consolidation...

last 3 hours of 2008...

wasted..just like that.

Hadn't been to a Count down thingy in years..

Remembered it was quite fun way back then.

Decided to be "adventurous". Gravely disappointed. Bands that i had never heard before is really fine if i can hear their music..the P.A. was so bad it's ridiculous..and the silly video they showed for almost at hour of pple from different walks of life saying some "crap" bout new year is..haiz..BORING.

wasted last 1 hour of 2008 looking at a man dressed in a luminous green tight chicken suit, "rocking" to his music..sigh..what a way to end the year.

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