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Wednesday, December 31, 2014

透过你的眼

透过你的眼,窥探你的生活。

感觉奇妙。:)

20/20, 阅读计划 2014 - 爱情,两好三坏 ~ 九把刀

书展,在翻阅时,有人介绍说不错的。

第一篇,自杀场景,要跳楼的大叔被曾经试过几次自杀的小妹吓跑。 略翻阅后觉得不错,有趣就买了。

扭蛋,棒球,等一个人咖啡。

小雪(就是那小妹,算女主),阿克 (男主, 热血但坚持有点怪),文姿 (阿克喜欢的,也喜欢阿克的)。

向一百个陌生人搭讪来训练告白的勇气。

对男主有点看不过眼,如果真的那么喜欢文姿,怎么可能还会和小雪那么的拖拖拉拉。搞到最后什么都乱了。会气到有点看不下去。

当然不这么搞也就没故事。

~

读到第二篇时,就发现我好像又读过这本书了。om天。但对title 一点印像都没有。算重新读过吧。


19/20, 阅读计划 2014 - 我要你记得我 ~ 陈雪莉

在书展随意挑的一本在打折的书。喜欢看金鱼,和墙壁聊天的男主捡到女主的手机,还给了她,但却把其中所有的联络号码删除。男主开始了他的“每天传送一个信息”的行动。

校园风,非常轻松的文字。易读。轻轻松松就阅读完。有一点predictable。

18/20, 阅读计划 2014 - 摆渡人 ~ 清木居士

算半友人出的散文。可以轻松读,主题看不出来,应该是我的程度还不到位。

对其中文章没有太大感觉或共鸣。

17/20, 阅读计划 2014 - 战国公子魏无忌之烽火焚炼 (上)~ 羽云

友人出版的历史小说。本身对战国时期没太大了解,只知大概,魏无忌 ~ 战国时期著名军事家,书中描述却感觉他本身就还好但还蛮会用人,结尾有点犯傻。

从开始就知道主角的结果,是一种呈现故事的手法是没错,但还是会觉得略有遗憾。

如果下集有出版应该会继续捧场,让故事完整。

16/20, 阅读计划 2014 - Daughters of Smoke and Bone ~ Laini Taylor

fantasy love story. feels "Twilight-ish". Instead of vampires and humans it's angels and chimaera (humanoid creatures that takes various forms, sort of like the "demons"). Eternal war between angels and chimaera, the female protagonist who is a chimaera incarnate who was in love with this angel.

strong female protagonist is so popular these days, most of the books I've read this year seem to revolve around one. Typical.


Wednesday, December 24, 2014

梦之旅の自想自写

在现实中也有他梦幻的地方,在那些时后抒发情绪的东写西写:



我知道你OK, 我只是想要...和你在一起

~

和你在一起的机会,我一刻都不想放弃。

~

我只是舍不得让今晚过得太快。

~

只是想多看一眼,靠近一点,多记一些,以你的身影填埋记忆的盒子,那就够了。

~

温度,气息,重量,味道。紧紧的试图抓住时间的尾巴哪怕明白那是多么的徒劳无功。

~

梦快醒了,准备好了没?

~

梦之旅结束了,回到现实吧。傻子。

言の葉の庭 (Kotonoha no Niwa)

隐约雷鸣,
Narakumi  no sukoshi toyomite

阴霾天空,
Furazu to mo

即使天无雨,我亦留此地。
Warewa tomaramu imoshi todomeba

~

原来有前段...

隐约雷鸣
阴霾天空 
但盼风雨来, 能留你在此

Saturday, December 13, 2014

听讲



刚才听了一个犯了”全天下男人都会犯的错”的男人的演讲。虽然有在脸书上稍微关注了一下但听了他的叙说后才发现他的压力真的蛮大的。

犯的那种错是不对但因为这一点你是否能够或应该否定那人之前做过的好和他的理念呢?

在那件事上,虽然是私事,但真的很混蛋。

公众人物的压力我一点都不懂也体会不到。

对于他的混蛋行为我其实没太在意,当事人都原谅了,外人急什么?

他的社会理念,热血和创作才华才是我关注他的原因吧?

希望还能看到他的好电影,好书。


15/20, 阅读计划 2014 - Me Before You ~ Jojo Moyes

story about how someone who was hired to be a care giver for someone who is wheelchair bounded after an accident. they touch each other's lives, for better or worse. the man who wants to die and the lady who takes it upon herself to make him want to live.

living. what is living really? am I living if it's not the life I want especially when there is nothing I can do to even improve the circumstances.

Is coping really sufficient? It's something I often ask myself. Coping with life. Sad isn't it, yet that's effectively what many people out there can hope for, only. Coping with life day by day, minute by minute.

“The thing about being catapulted into a whole new life--or at least, shoved up so hard against someone else's life that you might as well have your face pressed against their window--is that it forces you to rethink your idea of who you are. Or how you might seem to other people.” 

14/20, 阅读计划 2014 Balik Kampung 2A (Short Stories)

short stories! short local stories! some humor, some morbid. it's a strange experience reading about the life of people in places that seem so familiar (yes i rarely read any local stores, other than the Singapore Ghost Stories 1 & 2 many many many years ago).

kok seong who siam like xiao to find a nice place for his reading, john who was involved in an well executed ambush on rival school kids etc.

familiar charm to it.

13/20, 阅读计划 2014 - The Night Circus ~ Erin Morgenstern

Not someone who likes circus but I think I will like the one illustrated in the book.

It's a book about magic, wizards pitting their apprentice against each other in the most unique way. No fireballs or turning each other into toads and such. The competition is set in the Circus, circus where time stood still, with attractions so vividly described you wish you can be there. yes there is the  love story and yes you guessed it, between the apprentices.

I like the ethereal feel of the story with the distinct cast of characters.

oh and the clocks! the amazing clocks, i can't imagine what it is like.

~

"The circus arrives without warning. No announcements precede it. It is simply there, when yesterday it was not. Within the black-and-white striped canvas tents is an utterly unique experience full of breathtaking amazements. It is called 'Le Cirque des Reves' and it is only open at night."

12/20, 阅读计划 2014 - A Little History Of The World ~ E.H. Gombrich

Narration from stone age to the second world war. Was never a history buff but this book definitely makes it a easy read. Since it's written by Austrian born, British writer, the history is more of a "western" one (though the author did try to touch on some Asian ones).

I personally think it's a amazing book and one that I will definitely reread. It's almost like a grandfather writing a book for his grandchildren, one that they can understand and appreciate easily.
There's no dates or facts loading, it's one that while celebrating human success also reminds us of our weakness and frailties.

Sunday, November 30, 2014

Beyond ~ Love

 

属于你的歌曲,某某人唱了让你感动过的.

也曾经轻轻的在你耳边哼过,试图侵占你对这首歌的回忆.

那是一段多么疯狂的日子啊。

皮书

二十张薄薄的纸,五褐十五白,折半。

选盖色,量,裁。

双面夹纸,弄平。

打洞。选线。

高科技切纸,14.5,20.5,20.

穿线,竖竖竖,竖拫竖拫竖拫~

打结。

盖字印。

完毕!

~

打洞过程严重失误,导致最后书皮伤痕累累。

Saturday, November 15, 2014

...美的東西往往太早枯萎

終於滿貫了!

有一點點五味雜成.

祝大家xfmm.

來,笑一個:)



枯萎後也不過是為了在將來綻放色彩.

那時的風景還會不會有我?

Thursday, November 13, 2014

哪些歌曲?

臨睡前, 你聽的是那些歌曲?

怎麼樣的曲目更能讓你入眠或反映此時的心情?

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

黑。白。 配。

白。

地铁站阴影处,白色衬衫的男孩,白色小洋装的女孩。

女孩牵着男孩的手腕,男孩的手掌无力的挂着。

女孩热切的仰望着男孩漠然的脸孔。

凝结的空气。

~

黑。

巴士总站荧光灯下,黑色T恤的男孩和女孩。

男孩的双手环绕着女孩的腰,女孩的双手扣着男孩的后颈。

女孩男孩紧贴的拥抱着,笑着,晃着。

有点浪漫的气息。

~

阴暗的白, 光下的黑。

Thursday, October 09, 2014

Symbols and Metaphors

Finished (ok i skip some of it) catching Reza Aslan's speech and Q&A at ISF 2014.

He said some stuff about how he deals with his faith towards the end. I like his explanation. Not the exact text but here's a similar quote he given in an interview.

" I think of myself as a person of faith; I believe that there is a reality beyond the material realm, and I want to commune with that reality. But what I’m talking about is so ineffable that I need a language of symbols and metaphors in order to make sense of it to myself and to communicate those ideas to other people. 

The difference between Judaism, Christianity, and Islam is the same as the difference between French, German, and Spanish. They’re different languages to describe identical sentiments. For me, the language, the symbols, and the metaphors that make the most sense are those provided by Islam: the notion of the oneness of God, the conception of divine unity. 

These make sense to me in a way that the symbol of the suffering servant on the cross does not, in a way that the symbol of the void in Hinduism does not, and in a way that the symbol of the wheel of rebirth in Buddhism does not. I value those other symbols and languages, and, indeed, I’m literate in them, just as I can communicate in French and Arabic. But I think in English. And I feel my spirituality in the language of Islam."

and this..

"If you want to draw water you do not dig six one foot wells. You dig one six foot well. Islam is my six foot well. I like the symbols and metaphors it uses to describe the relationship between God and humanity. But I recognize that the water I am drawing is the same water that every other well around me is drawing. And no matter the well, the water is just as sweet!"


Thursday, August 14, 2014

路的一段

看到接口红绿灯的淡淡失落。

微喧哗的餐厅,略有人的车站。

不时更换的广告板。

绿栏杆的“小桥”。

砖块路。

缤纷的游乐场。

弯曲斜上的通道。

小满足了。

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

可恶的天桥

有什么是比跑到一半肚子不舒服更可恶?

当然是回程中还需要过的那座天桥。

~

两位外地来的劳工朋友上电梯前迟疑了一下,往后看。

(大概是想确认随后也想登电梯的是谁吧?)

是个uncle。放心了,能继续上。

~

昨夜回家途中看到一位穿着笔挺手的先生牵着一位穿着中学校服的小女生。

心里不禁邪恶的想,不会是恋童癖吧?

还真是位帅先生,东方George Clooney 型。

应该是她父亲辈的吧。不该邪恶的想。



Saturday, August 09, 2014

敷脸

地铁。

躺在推车上的小女孩。

朝上的脸被粉红的手巾盖着。

毫无动静。

怪有趣的。还活着吧?


Friday, August 08, 2014

day with niceties & sad stuff

sad stuff:
1. friend confirmed that the bf has broken up with her.

2. came home to find out ex hubby of biggest aunt has passed away. i won't say i am close to him but i do have memories of him when i was taken cared off at their place when i was very very young. looks stern but actually quite a gentle person.

niceties:
1. Cucumber mint tea was the highlight of the otherwise "meh" tea snack. 

2. Pressies!!!! Got a hamper full of goodies from japan and a whale! om神..so blessed.

3. Spending time with my favorite person (excluding bro & mum) on earth.


捡到

弯下捡起地上的那张白“纸”。

上面写着“Dear", 清秀的字体,是张照片。

瞬间做了个决定,为满足好奇而假装顺其自然的反过来看是什么照片吗?

否。就让它的故事留给它的主人。

~

孤单的”Dear“字也让我想起 ももへの手紙, Momo e no Tegami.

Sunday, July 06, 2014

我们唱着的歌 @ 书城

书城,很多童年回忆。小时候常去,武侠小说,漫画。

新谣,超有感染力的。熟悉的乐曲,歌词,我们的歌。

带给我的感觉,很文青,很热血,很温馨。

看到各位uncle, aunties 带着孩子,跟着朋友,自然的随着音乐唱着。

超感动。

~

每个人都有自己的故事。

每个人都有自己的喜好。

但我们却有那么的相同, 都被那首歌感动。

多着重于我们的相同,彼此的尊重,多试图了解而不是去排挤分化,那不是很好吗?






Tuesday, July 01, 2014

Birthdays w the family

there were the parties when we were kids with the huge smurf cakes and all that, as we grown older it became more of a intimate family affair, which i like. it's usually late night, bring out the cake, all dressed or not fully dressed in our home clothes for the candles, the cutting, for a slice or mouthful depending on how heavy dinner was. dad has always made it a point to have a cake for each of our birthdays and that's something i hold on to and hope to keep going.

few days before mum's birthday, even in his frail state, he reminded me to get a cake for her and even wanted to give me some money for it. got the safe choice, mango. that's the last birthday he celebrated with us. he left 3 days after that. i always wanted to believe he waited to at least do that.

it's difficult thinking about this. so the mention of not celebrating a birthday of a father hits me. i felt guilty but most of it i was overwhelmed with the regret that there isn't any more birthdays I can celebrate with him. The candles, the birthday song, the cutting, the rough photo taking in our most unglam home attire.

it's probably a very lousy way to look at it but every birthday is one less you can celebrate with the person you love.


11/20, 阅读计划 2014 - Before I die ~ Jenny Downham

“I wish I had a boyfriend. I wish he lived in the wardrobe on a coat hanger. Whenever I wanted, I could get him out and he'd look at me the way boys do in films, as if I'm beautiful.” 

Tessa has cancer. Tessa is dying. Tessa has a list, one that evolves and change. The relationships with the father, the mother that left for another person, the brother, the best friend and the boy.

It's not exactly heartbreaking, it's sad, definitely yet there's this ambivalence. The accounts of Tessa's last days were fleeting, you feel you're drifting in and out with her.

Knowing how unpredictable life is yet I'm not incline to think about what I want to do before it happen. I think I have a rough idea, the people I want to see the most, the words I want to say to them. I decided I want to be the last to go. 



10/20, 阅读计划 2014 - Drift : The Unmooring of American Miltary Power ~ Rachel Maddow

I spent quite a lot of time watching Rachel Maddow during the US presidential election. Like her delivery a lot, facts and opinions were clear. Razor sharp wit. It's only natural I included a book of hers in my booklist

The particular choice is random. Military topics is of little interest to me but I do question why the US seems to be at war all the time and have no idea how the citizens actually cope with this. From the Vietnam war to the war in Afghanistan, how the ballooning of executive power has led to wars wage one after the other whatever the reason. The privatization of parts of military (hmm sounds familiar). I always wondered why the military budget here is of such a huge percentage, yes I understand the factor of deterrence but there always seems to be so much waste. Is there more to it? Economic reasons perhaps? The need to sustain certain industry etc?

Helps that the delivery was accompanied with humor, it was incisive and witty. So after reading something from the left, I should perhaps balance it with a book from the right.

~

"When civilians are not asked to pay any price, it's easy to be at war - not just to intervene in a foreign land in the first place, but to keep on fighting there. The justifications for staying at war don't have to be particularly rational or cogently argued when so few Americans are making the sacrifice that it takes to stay." 

9/20, 阅读计划 2014 - Zealot, The Life and Times of Jesus of Nazareth ~ Reza Aslan

saw an interview of the author on youtube, thought this might be a interesting read. the narrative makes it easy to read even when the context and history is extremely foreign to me.

Time of turbulence, wars and rebellion. This is not about Jesus of of the Gospel but the one from history (or at least history as perceived by the author).

There are a lot of pretty vivid description and some explanations on the contradictions. The author tries his best to explain how he arrives at certain conclusions or at least the most probable scenario.

It's interesting how all the gospels are written decades after the death of the man and how the Christianity was permanently defined by a Roman.

"Two thousand years later, the Christ of Paul's creation has utterly subsumed the Jesus of history. The memory of the revolutionary zealot who walked across Galilee gathering an army of disciples with the goal of establishing the Kingdom of God on earth, the magnetic preacher who defied the authority of the Temple priesthood in Jerusalem, the radical Jewish nationalist who challenged the Roman occupation and lost, has been almost completely lost to history."

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

8/20, 阅读计划 2014 - A Tale for the Time Being ~ Ruth Ozeki

“A time being is someone who lives in time, and that means you, and me, and every one of us who is, or was, or ever will be.”

the hello kitty lunchbox. the dairy of the 16yo Japanese Nao. Ruth, the writer for finds the lunchbox. the 104yo Zen nun. Nao being bullied in school, the bullying described in the book is awfully brutal, not so much in the physical sense but emotionally. Haruki #1, the kamikaze pilot. Haruki #2, the depressed dad who lost his job in silicon valley, for noble conflicting reasons that are unknown the daughter.

love this book. it's not a fast paced book by any means but it kept me going. i want to find out more about "Nao" as much as the writer in the book.

there's a passage in the book talking about suicide, from the perspective of a depressed Japanese man.

"Death is certain. Life is always changing, like a puff of wind in the air,  or a wave in the sea, or even a thought in the mind. So making a suicide is finding the edge of life. It stops life in time, so we can grasp what shape it is  and feel it is real, at least for just a moment. it is trying to make some real solid thing from the flow of life that is always changing."

7/20, 阅读计划 2014 -Mistborn : The Final Empire ~ Brandon Sanderson

recommended by a camp mate during reservist.
by the author that helped complete the Wheel of Time series (which i am hoping to start reading again.)

fantasy with a very interesting magical system.
Mistings that can "burn" metal to gain a singular magical property.
Mistborns that can "burn" the different metals and gain the various magical properties.
Terris, race of people that can "store" magical properties in the different metals.

The rising against the tyrant that ruled the world for hundred years. Skaa , the lowest class of people, a "messiah" of sorts raising from among them to lead the charge. He died, he failed, but his protege, the female protagonist (Vin), "finish" the job.

Apparently there's 4 books in the series. Enjoy the first, in the middle of the 2nd!

Trichotillomania

came across Beckie0 while searching for "fault in our stars" on youtube.

end up clicking on "Helpful Quotes For Depression | Beckie0" instead.

that's how i learn about Trichotillomania (trik-o-til-o-MAY-nee-uh), is a disorder that involves recurrent, irresistible urges to pull out hair from your scalp, eyebrows or other areas of your body, despite trying to stop.

love the vlogs. spent the whole night watching through 1 after the other. upfront and honest feelings, thoughts about what she is going through. so brave! 

subscribed!

Monday, May 19, 2014

Sights

1. old ah ma giving "ang mo" kopi a shot. Love her sense of "adventure". seems like she tried espresso previously but did not like it, definitely did not deter her from giving cappuccino a try. Nice!

2. the brave lady that booked a villa for herself and drove to the ulu wedding location. isn't it creepy to have an entire villa to one person?! it is definitely not for me. only after talking to her did i know she did it out of consideration for the host..how sweet is that!

3. the villa, the wedding villa, wow, what a sight. the pool, the beach under the cliff, the sea, the waves, the flowers, the garden, the koi pond, the bell to ring for the butler. wow.


6/20, 阅读计划 2014 - Kitchen Confidential ~ Anthony Bourdain

am a fan of the "celebrity chef" circle. favorite being Michel Roux Jr, just love his calmness and poise (not sure if he will like being tagged the celebrity status)

A book about Anthony's days as a chef before the celebrity status. The nasties, the characters, the quirks. It is an adventure, chefs in the book are almost like swashbuckling pirates. So different from the glamour and sparkle of the kitchens we see on TV networks. It's good not to remind yourself what's going on in the kitchen when visiting a restaurant. What shines though all the gritty stuff is the dedication to the craft.

Fun read.


5/20, 阅读计划 2014 - The Last Lecture ~ Randy Pausch

The short chapters makes it easy. The tone of the book makes it easy. The subject is grim, especially how it resonates with my own experience.

A dying college prof, giving his last lecture, a legacy of sorts. "Really achieving your Childhood Dreams" was the title of the lecture.

Pancreatic cancer. Computer Science. Lecturer. There's so much comparisons to draw. I thought it won't be easy to go through the book, but the mood in it was real yet upbeat. That helps.

Have not watch the video of the lecture yet, will do it sometime.

4/20, 阅读计划 2014 - How Starbucks Saved My Lilfe ~ Michael Gates Gill

Feel good book.

Successful creative director in a advertising firm, in his 50s, big house, six figure salary, Ivy league education, seems to have it all. Went on to lose his job, the marriage and was even diagnosed with a brain tumor. Found a job in Starbucks, not a managerial role, worked for a minority for the first time in his life, with colleagues that he was never exposed to before.

Reminds me about my own privileged position.
To appreciate what we have and what's there, to respect.

Very easy read, Starbucks is so close to being Disneyland in the book. Makes me want to go buy a cup of Latte from a franchise that's just everywhere (yes there's 3 of them in close proximity to where I live).

Sunday, April 06, 2014

3/20, 阅读计划 2014 - the OCEAN at THE END of the LANE ~ Neil Gaimen

Whimsical fairy tale of sorts.

The nameless, bookish, loner narrator, recounting what happened when he was 7.

The mysterious and magical Hempstock family, the Old Mrs, Ginne, Lettie.

Short read. not quite sure what to make of it. Feels almost like a children book

~

“Adults follow paths. Children explore. Adults are content to walk the same way, hundreds of times, or thousands; perhaps it never occurs to adults to step off the paths, to creep beneath rhododendrons, to find the spaces between fences. I was a child, which meant that I knew a dozen different ways of getting out of our property and into the lane, ways that would not involve walking down our drive.” 


Saturday, April 05, 2014

2/20, 阅读计划 2014 - Looking for Alaska ~ John Green

"I go to seek a Great Perhaps!"

"How will I ever get out of this labyrinth!"

Miles Halter - the awkward gawky protagonist with the quirky interest in the "last words" of famous people.

Alaska Young - wild, unpredictable, enigmatic. the love interest.

Chip Martin "Colonel" - loyal, honor. the prankster, the friend. the roommate.

Typical awkward loner teen trying to get away from his old life in search of a "Great Perhaps". The new friendships, the booze, the weed, the sex, the pranks. Felt like a typical high school teenage story. Then it got poignant. There's death, there's suspect of suicide, there's the anger, the loss, the grief, the suffering, the forgiving. What is to be sombre was peppered with humor and compassion, making it easy to read.

Will revisit.

~

“Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia. (...) You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.” 

Saturday, March 22, 2014

1/20, 阅读计划 2014 - 上课不能看小说

上课不能看小说 ~ 九把刀

“.... 你爸爸被溶解了!”

天马星空,无敌诡异,爆笑,悬疑,有那一丁点恐怖的闹剧。

王大明。

以不同方法自杀而死的鬼众。

连闯14次红灯将会发生的。

熊猫大改造。

踩破一切的少女。

引发身体核爆炸的Aunty。

阅读计划 2014.

受到紫衣的启发。

2014 我将挑战阅读20本书!

虽然不是很多,但总是个开始。

加油!

Thursday, February 20, 2014

嫉妒的心

被睡梦中嫉妒的心所惊醒。

有趣,可怕。

嫉妒的情绪不常有,这几年来。

嫉妒的心,这几年来,却不时的被你挑动。

你。只是你。

有趣,可怕。

~

很认真的,几度的,问过自己。

在平行的世界里我会不会把距离拉得更近?

不会。不敢。不想。

这样的距离,丑陋的情绪都被掀起。

~

距离近了,不安。

距离远了,不甘。

~

有你的温暖,我迷恋。

有你的空间,我雀跃。

有你的讯息,我微笑。

有你的声音,我安心。

~

我嫉妒,我自私。

多丑陋。


Sunday, January 19, 2014

《见或不见》

你见,或者不见我,
我就在那里,
不悲不喜;
你念,或者不念我,
情就在那里,
不来不去;
你爱,或者不爱我,
爱就在那里,
不增不减;
你跟,或者不跟我,
我的手就在你手里,
不舍不弃;
来我的怀里,
或者,
让我住进你的心里
默然 相爱
寂静 欢喜

~

《见或不见》

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